Getting closer

This morning I called the IF center to reschedule my intake because it was conflicting with an out-of-town friend's visit and it was cutting close to when I was suppose to get AF.  When I called, the receptionist gave me the choice of a female on the 3rd or a male on the 5th. I chose the 5th. So, my appt is in less than a week. Holy Cow! I think I will be saying that a lot in the coming weeks. eek. This is crazy.

Tonight after dinner I check my email and was surprised to find an email from the IF center. It was full of all the paperwork that I need to fill out before my appt. which includes health history, sexual history, pregnancy history, what organs I'm willing to donate for a chance at a healthy pregnancy...just kidding...There was also information on infertility counseling and what vitamins I should be taking at least one month prior to conceiving.

I called and scheduled my yearly exam for the 3rd as well. ick. I think the last time I had a yearly was 3? 4? years ago. I've been to this practice before and liked the cnm I saw, but she is no longer there. I heard great things about the person I will be seeing on the 3rd. I hope we hit it off well. It would be nice to already know who will be handling my care if there is a pregnancy at the end of this...a girl can hope...

On Monday I will send some paperwork to the s*erm bank, have my blood work results sent to the IF center and wait some more ;-)

It's getting closer.

Holy Cow!

CD 4

I'm sitting at CD 4. The next time I see CD 4 I should be starting C*omid. Holy Cow. It felt like a million years away and now we're almost at the starting line for this once in a lifetime do-over. The "last" vial all over again. I can't believe it.

There have been several times throughout the last 2 months where I wasn't sure this would happen. So many reasons have raced through my mind about waiting and not waiting. Do I dare attempt single motherhood with two children? Do I wait so my child(ren) can have two parents? Is this fair to my son? What happens if my pregnancy is one big catastrophy? What if something goes horribly wrong? I don't know, but my ideal in terms of where my son and I sit...I want him to have someone to walk this life with, someone he can rant and rave with about their crazy mom, someone who understands what it's like to have no father, but a donor.  Someone he can have that unimaginable bond with.

So, here I go, almost. My last attempt at my single parent dream of giving my son someone who he can grow up and old with that shares his full genetic make up.