It's funny how things happen.

The front of my car after it was hit.

The last post was written early in the morning on the 8th of Dec. That afternoon my file at the sp*rm bank was finished so I was finally able to pay for the vials ensuring they were really mine. At 11:30 that night my car was hit head on and tossed across the street while it was parked in front of my mother's house.
There were pieces from both cars all over the street. The driver tried to pull a hit and run, but two of my mother's neighbors followed the car until it reached it's destination.
The cops were called and the neighbors took them to the house where the car stopped. It turns out the owner of the car was a 20 year old girl. Her story was that she was driving and fell asleep. Her boyfriend was also in the car and drunk. The police officer said they could tell she was covering for him, but no matter what they did she wouldn't tell the truth. So, the officer had no choice but to take her into jail and impound her (totaled) car. Now if she comes clean about her boyfriend being the driver she will have a class A misdemeanor on her record.

I hope she's able to learn from this experience...

Luckily, from my end the accident has been a blessing. Thanks to my mom's neighbors, we knew who was responsible and were able to act immediately. The driver of the car had great insurance. They put me in a rental less than 24 hours later and was given a fair settlement. Now, I'm able to buy a new vehicle with better gas mileage and with it being close to Christmas hopefully get a steal of a deal too.

I don't believe in coincidences. The timing was too perfect for it to be "random". I didn't push the feeling of wanting another child away like I've done many times before, the bank finding lost vials and I happen to come across them, my car being totaled only hours after I actually purchased the samples.  I know this was meant to happen. However, I'm wavering again on when to try. I know I need to do some more praying about it and seek out God's answer. Whatever that answer is I know I will be at peace with it.

All in God's time.

Wow!

I've been wanting to have another baby for years, but it never seemed to be the right time. That was until a few months ago when the urge was nagging once again. I didn't fight the feeling this time though. I let it stay and grow. I began looking into the logistics. I knew I wouldn't be able to get vials from my son's donor because he was long gone. I looked at a new bank and found a suitable donor. However, I didn't jump on it. I continued to stew. I flipped and I flopped. Now I think I know why I kept waiting.

For some unknown reason on Sunday I decided to skim through the donor list of the bank I used to become pregnant with my son and stumbled across my son's donor! He hasn't been listed since I was pregnant. A shock went through me. Maybe this is the right time. Maybe this is why the other times never panned out. Maybe my 2nd child is meant to have the same donor as my son.

Sunday night I prayed that God would lead the way. Monday I was able to get a hold of someone at the bank and found there was one ICI and one IVF vial available (the bank found them while redoing their inventory). I was a bit concerned that there were only two, but it's two more chances for my son that I didn't have before. I asked them to hold the vials and I'd fax the new client paperwork over in a few hours. They agreed! The vials were mine!

This is such an incredibly amazing gift. I get chills thinking about how this could be "meant to be". What if those vials were just waiting for the right time for me. What if baby number 2 is somewhere in one of those vials. Maybe just maybe they went off the bank's radar because they were meant for me and are going to help create such an important part of my family. Maybe just maybe baby number 2 won't be a dream anymore.