I met the CNM

First, this was hanging up in the exam room. I'm not saying it means anything, but I do like to find little possible signs :)

I had my appt at the new OBGYN office this morning. The CNM I met with seems nice and her background is exactly what I'm looking for. One of the best parts is that she worked at a hospital that is VERY Vbac friendly. I'm on the fence on if I want one, but I definately want it to be my choice.

My pap went great. I should have the results in two weeks.

I asked her about going back on Me*for*in and she agreed to 1000mg dose for the next couple of months. I will start taking that tonight. *joy joy* Anyone who has been on it knows what I mean. She also wrote me a script for zpac. I've had some kind of head funk for a few weeks and I'm pretty tired of it.

Now it's onto the big appt. I'm so nervous about meeting this new dr. eek.

Getting closer

This morning I called the IF center to reschedule my intake because it was conflicting with an out-of-town friend's visit and it was cutting close to when I was suppose to get AF.  When I called, the receptionist gave me the choice of a female on the 3rd or a male on the 5th. I chose the 5th. So, my appt is in less than a week. Holy Cow! I think I will be saying that a lot in the coming weeks. eek. This is crazy.

Tonight after dinner I check my email and was surprised to find an email from the IF center. It was full of all the paperwork that I need to fill out before my appt. which includes health history, sexual history, pregnancy history, what organs I'm willing to donate for a chance at a healthy pregnancy...just kidding...There was also information on infertility counseling and what vitamins I should be taking at least one month prior to conceiving.

I called and scheduled my yearly exam for the 3rd as well. ick. I think the last time I had a yearly was 3? 4? years ago. I've been to this practice before and liked the cnm I saw, but she is no longer there. I heard great things about the person I will be seeing on the 3rd. I hope we hit it off well. It would be nice to already know who will be handling my care if there is a pregnancy at the end of this...a girl can hope...

On Monday I will send some paperwork to the s*erm bank, have my blood work results sent to the IF center and wait some more ;-)

It's getting closer.

Holy Cow!

whew

Before I went into the dr office to try getting the blood test taken care of I took a long hot shower. That proved to be the winning ticket because the MA only had to stick me once. I was so glad that my body cooperated this time.

Blood draws aren't painful. They're just a pain.

For some reason my body likes my blood and doesn't like to hand it over to anyone, ever. It's always 50/50 as to whether the MAs will be able to find a willing vein and then it's even more slim that it will actually drain. I've ended up having to head to the hospital many times. ICK.

So, when I saw the amount of vials yesterday (5) I knew I was in for an uphill battle. I laughed at the MA and said good luck. After an hour of sticks, gloves filled with hot water, 2 cups of chlorine tasting hot water to drink, running my arms under hot water and a flash light that sort of reminded me of a taser (to use this he had to stick me in the dark...) we had a grand total of 1/3 of one vial. awesome.

At that point I could either head to the hospital or come back tomorrow morning. I chose the latter. I'm heading back in about an hour. I hope my vains cooperate a bit better today. If not I'll have to head to the hospital.

Ouch

I called the fertility center today to get a quote on prices and you could have knocked me over with a feather. $1345.00. That is the cost for one simple round of a lightly medicated IUI cycle. For the very same treatment six years ago it was under $500.00.

I'm not quite sure where this leaves me. I don't know if I can spend that much for one chance. I understand that it's a chance worth taking if it works, but what if it doesn't.  Will I be okay with myself and making that decision if the stick stays white and we're still a "mommy-son" family? Will I be okay if I opt for the at-home approach and the stick doesn't turn blue though? I don't know.